How I feel about this year that just got here.

Im 17 now and my life has started to become calmer but crazier all at the same time. With the people coming and going in my life this has to do with them. Im done tip toeing around everyone. Ive tried to make everyone happy, everyone but myself my whole life and I cant do it anymore. I dont have the energy in me to. 17 years of making EVERYONE happy but myself and its time for it to end. I know who Ill have in 20 years and I can tell you now I know who wont be and that doesnt bother me one bit. If I loose you its your loss. Im going to make my own life and its going to be full of happiness. Im going to finish Junior year with a BANG. Im going to tell my dad what I really think and its going to be hard for both me and him and I am going to tell him how he needs to fix his life and I will help him but if he doesnt grow up I will be gone. Its going to be hard but it needs to be done. Good grades, great memories, and im getting my license.

This Summer Im going to stay out late and be with great friends. Im going to spend time with who ever I want to and Im not going to worry about what happens because I believe everything happens for a reason. I refuse to waste my days away at home. I will do what I want to do.

Senior year I hope to get great grades, have even better memories, graduates and get into great schools for nursing. I will become a nurse no matter what it takes. I want to go back to church and get a better relationship with my family and spend a ton of more time with my grandmas. when I graduate my life will begin.

2011 is full of hope for me. Nothing but hope and faith. I can get through this just like every other battle ive gone through.